...same old life, same old things to do, nowhere to go and no-one to go with...life, is tres boring!!
I mean today is a Monday, without school (Btw, i seem to have class for like 1 day in a week which i find very weird for a 1 yr MBA. I hear that 4 yr MBAs are more intense!!) Anywho....so it's almost like a Sunday. And on days without school i usually wake at like 3 or 4. Cos, let's face it, there is nothing to do!! but, I decided to try and change that. (I mean, how bad can it be to give it a try right?) So instead of 3 i woke up at 10. Really! (I actually set the alarm for 9, woke up and then thought, "haha..Ya right!" reset it for 10 and went back to sleep) And guess what?? I'm bored at 5 instead of 10. Basically my life has taken a step forward, literally, by like 5 hrs. And we're back to square 1!
On the bright side, i have a tip to look forward to over the next 2 days so that should kinda be better. Plus i have a book or 2 to read. (One of them is about Jesus is a sham or some such.....should be fun!!) Plus i dloaded 3 or 4 songs that i can listen to till i am bored to death of them....(Damn i'm so bored i don even know what to blog about...) So i guess that's it...
Au revoir...and what not...
Monday, February 21, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Scotoma....
...the mind chooses to see what it wants to...
A friend blogged about it recently...(take a bow metzy!! Will the real metzy please stand up) and it got me thinking...how the true it is!!
think about it....everytime in life...do you really see things objectively for what it is? Or do you see that which you want to? Do you see that glass of water half full on a shitty day or do you see an almost full glass as not even full? Do u see the actions of someone for what it could be or do you see it for something that you want it to be, or for that matter what u think it is...without really knowing? Do you pass judgement? Do you trust blindly???
It's like in the Matrix, where the little kid tells NEO..."Don't try to bend the spoon instead realise the truth....there is no spoon".
It's an interesting phenomenon...really....how it all pans out and the cards fall....
Take for example the course i am in. It's shitty....no point, no real end product, no real content, no real MBA. (It's like a major money spinning mechanism. People one fine day got together and decided...hey u know what...lets see if we can squeeze like 14k pounds out of a bunch of suckers! And u know what lets actively target the countries like India where even though they cannot afford it and will have to mortgage their house, car, dog and neighbours a few times over to get the money, ppl will still raise the cash and come!!) But it's there bcos ppl like to see it as something big and people running it are convinced that it is the solution to the world's hunger problem, world peace and just about anything else you can think off. (UN goes...Damn we need to solve this issue in bahrain. Lets get a football MBA in....they are the only guys who can solve this!! Yeah right!!) But then there's me who is convinced otherwise and could well have just burnt all that money and it would have probably been the same! But that's where Scotoma kicks in.....am i looking at it that way bcos i feel so let down by the course and that all the course is not as bad as the beginning?? Is it just in my mind and maybe a more open mind would actually turn this all around and make some damn sense??
But it's never that simple is it? Academics are least of your problems though at the time they always seem so huge and everything, it's probably the easiest to deal with. Why? Cos u need marks....that's it. It's quantifiable...yeah sure it affects life...but does it really make a huge difference? The guys who do the best are guys who invaribaly leave school, college or whatever (Einstein, bill gates anyone?? Yeah i aim high. Always go big...that way when u crash u know u atleast tried!! It's kind of an antithesis that i aim high fully expecting to crash...but then...such is life)
It's the life choices that end up screwing u up! Scotoma in life...now that's a bitch. (it is actually as bad as it sounds. Scotoma of life!! Oh my god doctor??what does that mean? It means that...well ur screwed!) I mean really....when things seem a certain way, when u are sure ur getting screwed by someone (and not in the way u'd like..) being taken advantage of, but u just can't do anything about it. you know u should, u don't need to put urself through this...but no!!! u still go through it day after day after day....why?? bcos u can't help it! Mind says dude...ur screwed!! but u think that's just scotoma...it can't be that bad can it? That's not what is happening is it? Na.....it'll be alright. It's just a phase!! Wake up jackass!! ur being played like a well tuned piano i tell u!! smell the coffee (rather bad one that i make as well. I really need to find some good coffee. u know the kind that makes u wake up in the morning and go...hmmm!! anyway..i digress...). U know u get left feeling like Tom from those T&J cartoons where he gets conned by Jerry and then his head is replaced by a Jackass's head when he realises it!! (That used to be good fun. Screw work and watch T&J....haha good times...and once again...i digress...)
so what do you do? well....apparently nothing....cos common sense and logic goes out the window...so....u just keep trying to bend the spoon i guess...
A friend blogged about it recently...(take a bow metzy!! Will the real metzy please stand up) and it got me thinking...how the true it is!!
think about it....everytime in life...do you really see things objectively for what it is? Or do you see that which you want to? Do you see that glass of water half full on a shitty day or do you see an almost full glass as not even full? Do u see the actions of someone for what it could be or do you see it for something that you want it to be, or for that matter what u think it is...without really knowing? Do you pass judgement? Do you trust blindly???
It's like in the Matrix, where the little kid tells NEO..."Don't try to bend the spoon instead realise the truth....there is no spoon".
It's an interesting phenomenon...really....how it all pans out and the cards fall....
Take for example the course i am in. It's shitty....no point, no real end product, no real content, no real MBA. (It's like a major money spinning mechanism. People one fine day got together and decided...hey u know what...lets see if we can squeeze like 14k pounds out of a bunch of suckers! And u know what lets actively target the countries like India where even though they cannot afford it and will have to mortgage their house, car, dog and neighbours a few times over to get the money, ppl will still raise the cash and come!!) But it's there bcos ppl like to see it as something big and people running it are convinced that it is the solution to the world's hunger problem, world peace and just about anything else you can think off. (UN goes...Damn we need to solve this issue in bahrain. Lets get a football MBA in....they are the only guys who can solve this!! Yeah right!!) But then there's me who is convinced otherwise and could well have just burnt all that money and it would have probably been the same! But that's where Scotoma kicks in.....am i looking at it that way bcos i feel so let down by the course and that all the course is not as bad as the beginning?? Is it just in my mind and maybe a more open mind would actually turn this all around and make some damn sense??
But it's never that simple is it? Academics are least of your problems though at the time they always seem so huge and everything, it's probably the easiest to deal with. Why? Cos u need marks....that's it. It's quantifiable...yeah sure it affects life...but does it really make a huge difference? The guys who do the best are guys who invaribaly leave school, college or whatever (Einstein, bill gates anyone?? Yeah i aim high. Always go big...that way when u crash u know u atleast tried!! It's kind of an antithesis that i aim high fully expecting to crash...but then...such is life)
It's the life choices that end up screwing u up! Scotoma in life...now that's a bitch. (it is actually as bad as it sounds. Scotoma of life!! Oh my god doctor??what does that mean? It means that...well ur screwed!) I mean really....when things seem a certain way, when u are sure ur getting screwed by someone (and not in the way u'd like..) being taken advantage of, but u just can't do anything about it. you know u should, u don't need to put urself through this...but no!!! u still go through it day after day after day....why?? bcos u can't help it! Mind says dude...ur screwed!! but u think that's just scotoma...it can't be that bad can it? That's not what is happening is it? Na.....it'll be alright. It's just a phase!! Wake up jackass!! ur being played like a well tuned piano i tell u!! smell the coffee (rather bad one that i make as well. I really need to find some good coffee. u know the kind that makes u wake up in the morning and go...hmmm!! anyway..i digress...). U know u get left feeling like Tom from those T&J cartoons where he gets conned by Jerry and then his head is replaced by a Jackass's head when he realises it!! (That used to be good fun. Screw work and watch T&J....haha good times...and once again...i digress...)
so what do you do? well....apparently nothing....cos common sense and logic goes out the window...so....u just keep trying to bend the spoon i guess...
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Deja Vu - all over again....
.....it's that sinking feeling....all over again!
When u know u have something to do and no time to do it in, and when u want to do something and can't do it, and when u want to know what the fuck is happening but can't ask, and when u want to eat something other than cornflakes but can't!!(actually that's just one of the reasons...there's a myraid of other reasons..which i shall not dvelve into at this point in time...)
..and to add to all that mess is a presentation/assignment due in the morning and u are starting it at 10 in the night. (well the plan is to start it at 10, but doesn't look like that's gonna happen either....so looks like it's gonna be a long night!!) and it's on finance! (ever heard of the term double whammy?? Well whoever came up with that certainly didn't have this sort of experience...else it would have been multiple whammy!!)
So then what do you do?? Well u apparently blog about it like that's gonna make matters better!
but the best part of it all is that...it's all happened before! A number of times...and every time it seems worse than the last time. (well it probably is, but when ur in such a mess it all seems the same no??)
such is life....and it ends in 2 blog posts in a day? touchdown!!
(That's the ending of the Christmas for brown folks song...for the uninitiated...listen to it...it's good)
When u know u have something to do and no time to do it in, and when u want to do something and can't do it, and when u want to know what the fuck is happening but can't ask, and when u want to eat something other than cornflakes but can't!!(actually that's just one of the reasons...there's a myraid of other reasons..which i shall not dvelve into at this point in time...)
..and to add to all that mess is a presentation/assignment due in the morning and u are starting it at 10 in the night. (well the plan is to start it at 10, but doesn't look like that's gonna happen either....so looks like it's gonna be a long night!!) and it's on finance! (ever heard of the term double whammy?? Well whoever came up with that certainly didn't have this sort of experience...else it would have been multiple whammy!!)
So then what do you do?? Well u apparently blog about it like that's gonna make matters better!
but the best part of it all is that...it's all happened before! A number of times...and every time it seems worse than the last time. (well it probably is, but when ur in such a mess it all seems the same no??)
such is life....and it ends in 2 blog posts in a day? touchdown!!
(That's the ending of the Christmas for brown folks song...for the uninitiated...listen to it...it's good)
Dum Dum Dum...Dumda Dum...Dumda Dum!!
That, my friends, is cult music!
It's the music for Darth Vader during his appearances in Star Wars! (He's like a WWE wrestler. Everytime he enters he has music playing...pretty awesome stuff...)
The name's Vader, Darth Vader i tell you! Really I can't think of any other character who is half as famous as the masked villian! (And....he' also one of the most popular! You find more people who like Darth Vader than ppl who like batman or superman i'm sure. Superman ppl prolly don't like cos he wears his undies outside and let's face it...that's kinda weird...)
The only other character in the Star Wars universe who gives any competition to Darth is Yoda. ("Competition give you i will...hmmm") And Yoda of course is famous for his unique way of talking....there's just something weirdly cool about inverting sentences. think about it....you go up to someone on the street and say..."Up the Fuck Shut!!"...just sounds so much more gangster no??
But i was just watching the whole series the other day....(All 6 movies...one after the other..) and i must say...it is quiet brilliant! You have to give them credit for coming up with something like this out of nowhere and making it so big. Especially since the first 3 movies didn't even have the full on special effects abilities of the later movies! And the characters are also some of the most well fleshed out characters in recent memory in books and movies....
That also explains why they are used so much even in advertising! I have seen a number of ads using Darth especially in various ways. And it is just unbelievable funny! I'm sure it does a lot for the brand as well to have association with Darth! (I'm sure Darth is also easier to work with than JK Rowling! that lady makes a killing on Harry Potter and is a walking talking business i tell you...but then again, when u create a world with the sort of following that HP has, i guess u don't want to give it away for free...but still!! Darth trumps HP any day.....)
So then, I was wondering...who what a conversation between batman, superman, darth vader, yoda, hp etc would be like...if they formed a group like the Avengers..(2 men, 2 jedi and a potter place??)
Superman: People all over the world need help and we will provide it. We will call ourselves the Supermen! that way..
Batman: (in a husky voice) who made you the leader?
Yoda: bad your throat is. Mine too. hmm hmm. Need some help we both do.
Superman: Look. focus guys. Yoda..we'll deal with ur issues later. For now we need to ...
(Music starts..."Dum dum dum...dumda dum..dumda dum...)
Superman: Christ...Really Darth...do you have to play that tape everytime you walk in. It's getting on my nerves..
DV: (Heavy breathing) don't underestimate the power of the dark side...
HP: Ok. Look i need to go beat this voldermort guy. and flirt with hermione while pretending that i would like her to get together with Ron, and there's ginny also.. Life's complicated as hell as it is...I really don't need this u know..
Yoda: 99 problems i have, but a bitch ain't one....
Batman: Alfred, get me some coffee please...looks like this will take a while...
Superman: Ok everybody..settle down. Right. Look i'm the leader bcos i can fly faster than a speeding bullet..and i'm the man of steel. and i...ahhhh...ahhh....
Yoda: Stop choking superman u must, darth vader.
HP: Yeah come on man....Expelliarmus!! (DV's arm comes off). Oh crap. Sorry....i forgot u have a prosthetic arm...
(Meanwhile, Alfred comes with coffee for everybody)
Yoda: Hmm Hmm..The force is strong in this coffee...like it I do...hmm hmm
(Suddenly...there' a crash and the roof collapses and Agent Smith comes through...)
Agent Smith: Hello Mr. Anderson! We meet again...our fates are....wait a min...what the hell..who are you guys? Where's NEO?
HP: You're in the wrong set. The Matrix set is next door.
Yoda: Dark glasses you wear i see. to the dark side you have gone...
DV: (Removing light saber) There's only one way to settle this...
Superman: Settle what? GOD! DV...you need to chill man!!
HP: Ok that's it i'm leaving...Accio Broomstick!
So as you can see...this isn't going to work...so i guess we can just stay happy about the avengers..
Anywho..that's it for now...see you all next time i will...
It's the music for Darth Vader during his appearances in Star Wars! (He's like a WWE wrestler. Everytime he enters he has music playing...pretty awesome stuff...)
The name's Vader, Darth Vader i tell you! Really I can't think of any other character who is half as famous as the masked villian! (And....he' also one of the most popular! You find more people who like Darth Vader than ppl who like batman or superman i'm sure. Superman ppl prolly don't like cos he wears his undies outside and let's face it...that's kinda weird...)
The only other character in the Star Wars universe who gives any competition to Darth is Yoda. ("Competition give you i will...hmmm") And Yoda of course is famous for his unique way of talking....there's just something weirdly cool about inverting sentences. think about it....you go up to someone on the street and say..."Up the Fuck Shut!!"...just sounds so much more gangster no??
But i was just watching the whole series the other day....(All 6 movies...one after the other..) and i must say...it is quiet brilliant! You have to give them credit for coming up with something like this out of nowhere and making it so big. Especially since the first 3 movies didn't even have the full on special effects abilities of the later movies! And the characters are also some of the most well fleshed out characters in recent memory in books and movies....
That also explains why they are used so much even in advertising! I have seen a number of ads using Darth especially in various ways. And it is just unbelievable funny! I'm sure it does a lot for the brand as well to have association with Darth! (I'm sure Darth is also easier to work with than JK Rowling! that lady makes a killing on Harry Potter and is a walking talking business i tell you...but then again, when u create a world with the sort of following that HP has, i guess u don't want to give it away for free...but still!! Darth trumps HP any day.....)
So then, I was wondering...who what a conversation between batman, superman, darth vader, yoda, hp etc would be like...if they formed a group like the Avengers..(2 men, 2 jedi and a potter place??)
Superman: People all over the world need help and we will provide it. We will call ourselves the Supermen! that way..
Batman: (in a husky voice) who made you the leader?
Yoda: bad your throat is. Mine too. hmm hmm. Need some help we both do.
Superman: Look. focus guys. Yoda..we'll deal with ur issues later. For now we need to ...
(Music starts..."Dum dum dum...dumda dum..dumda dum...)
Superman: Christ...Really Darth...do you have to play that tape everytime you walk in. It's getting on my nerves..
DV: (Heavy breathing) don't underestimate the power of the dark side...
HP: Ok. Look i need to go beat this voldermort guy. and flirt with hermione while pretending that i would like her to get together with Ron, and there's ginny also.. Life's complicated as hell as it is...I really don't need this u know..
Yoda: 99 problems i have, but a bitch ain't one....
Batman: Alfred, get me some coffee please...looks like this will take a while...
Superman: Ok everybody..settle down. Right. Look i'm the leader bcos i can fly faster than a speeding bullet..and i'm the man of steel. and i...ahhhh...ahhh....
Yoda: Stop choking superman u must, darth vader.
HP: Yeah come on man....Expelliarmus!! (DV's arm comes off). Oh crap. Sorry....i forgot u have a prosthetic arm...
(Meanwhile, Alfred comes with coffee for everybody)
Yoda: Hmm Hmm..The force is strong in this coffee...like it I do...hmm hmm
(Suddenly...there' a crash and the roof collapses and Agent Smith comes through...)
Agent Smith: Hello Mr. Anderson! We meet again...our fates are....wait a min...what the hell..who are you guys? Where's NEO?
HP: You're in the wrong set. The Matrix set is next door.
Yoda: Dark glasses you wear i see. to the dark side you have gone...
DV: (Removing light saber) There's only one way to settle this...
Superman: Settle what? GOD! DV...you need to chill man!!
HP: Ok that's it i'm leaving...Accio Broomstick!
So as you can see...this isn't going to work...so i guess we can just stay happy about the avengers..
Anywho..that's it for now...see you all next time i will...
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Diary of an addict....
....gambling addict that is!
Yes! Me! Gambling! i tell you how the world can change quickly. (One fine day its all good, life is great and then BAM!! you don't even know what hit you and life is pear shaped and ur going down a hill without brakes on a rickety vehicle to certain gloom and doom till things go boom.....only this time not in Dexter's lab)
So how u ask. Ah!! cher ami.....just like that i say!
It all started with a rather innocuous trip to Leeds for a day. (Don't ask why...i think i just needed to get out...) So then here i was walking around in leeds chilling (quite literally), shopping in the market, walking the city and u know other general touristy stuff. Then i watched the derby at a local pub. Which was rather fun...and then...well yeah that's where the aforementioned BAM! happens (even though the aforementioned BAM! is relating to something else entirely, but the basic principal is the same...)Well, i basically had nothing else to do. Really! I had time till 9 in the evening. It was 3. So then what does one do? So i said "what the hell, lets visit casino"....(No really...those were the precise words i said... Aloud.... To myself... I tend to do that when nobody is around. I find myself to be a good listener. The only problem is that people tend to be around more often than i think...and then ofcourse they think i'm weird)
So i go to casino, register and all that and get chips worth 25 pounds. To a novice gambler, that is a lot of chips! trust me. U feel like ur gonna win before u even start. Why? bcos u have like 50 chips!! (each chip is half a pound) So then i start, tentatively at roulette. and voila! I win! And i win again! and again! till i think..."Shit! this stuff is simple. how do idots manage to lose money!!" (And i realise later that, that sort of thinking is precisely why people lose money!! We'll get to that in a bit)
So then finally i leave at around 9 having made a cart load compared to the 25 i started with! (Not a real cart load. And cart load in my terms which would technically be anything more than 25, but here it really was more than 25...but lets stay off numbers.....ooh what the fuck..it was 120! I know!!) So then, i think..."Lets try this more often. That way no part time work!! (Refer to previous post about how part time work sucks etc etc) So then i play! again! the next day! And?? BAM!! just like that i lose 30 pounds! so....moral of the story.....get a life....don gamble. U will lose! There aren't so many successful casinos bcos people win.....the house always wins! (And no not ur house....so don't bet ur house....u will lose it) So do something more constructive....like sleep, or read, or write a blog....
But if u look at it....i did make over 100 and lose 30 over the 2 days...so technically, i am still in the positive....so i can still...No No! must stop. Should not gamble! (Frustrated hitting of head against wall and holding onto something to stop legs from walking back to casino!) no no no no!!!!
"Can i have chips for 40 pounds please??" And it begins....again....
Yes! Me! Gambling! i tell you how the world can change quickly. (One fine day its all good, life is great and then BAM!! you don't even know what hit you and life is pear shaped and ur going down a hill without brakes on a rickety vehicle to certain gloom and doom till things go boom.....only this time not in Dexter's lab)
So how u ask. Ah!! cher ami.....just like that i say!
It all started with a rather innocuous trip to Leeds for a day. (Don't ask why...i think i just needed to get out...) So then here i was walking around in leeds chilling (quite literally), shopping in the market, walking the city and u know other general touristy stuff. Then i watched the derby at a local pub. Which was rather fun...and then...well yeah that's where the aforementioned BAM! happens (even though the aforementioned BAM! is relating to something else entirely, but the basic principal is the same...)Well, i basically had nothing else to do. Really! I had time till 9 in the evening. It was 3. So then what does one do? So i said "what the hell, lets visit casino"....(No really...those were the precise words i said... Aloud.... To myself... I tend to do that when nobody is around. I find myself to be a good listener. The only problem is that people tend to be around more often than i think...and then ofcourse they think i'm weird)
So i go to casino, register and all that and get chips worth 25 pounds. To a novice gambler, that is a lot of chips! trust me. U feel like ur gonna win before u even start. Why? bcos u have like 50 chips!! (each chip is half a pound) So then i start, tentatively at roulette. and voila! I win! And i win again! and again! till i think..."Shit! this stuff is simple. how do idots manage to lose money!!" (And i realise later that, that sort of thinking is precisely why people lose money!! We'll get to that in a bit)
So then finally i leave at around 9 having made a cart load compared to the 25 i started with! (Not a real cart load. And cart load in my terms which would technically be anything more than 25, but here it really was more than 25...but lets stay off numbers.....ooh what the fuck..it was 120! I know!!) So then, i think..."Lets try this more often. That way no part time work!! (Refer to previous post about how part time work sucks etc etc) So then i play! again! the next day! And?? BAM!! just like that i lose 30 pounds! so....moral of the story.....get a life....don gamble. U will lose! There aren't so many successful casinos bcos people win.....the house always wins! (And no not ur house....so don't bet ur house....u will lose it) So do something more constructive....like sleep, or read, or write a blog....
But if u look at it....i did make over 100 and lose 30 over the 2 days...so technically, i am still in the positive....so i can still...No No! must stop. Should not gamble! (Frustrated hitting of head against wall and holding onto something to stop legs from walking back to casino!) no no no no!!!!
"Can i have chips for 40 pounds please??" And it begins....again....
Thursday, February 10, 2011
à tout le monde.....à tous mes amis....
.....ou est le soleil? i mean really? where is the sun? I haven't seen it in like....oooh there it is....Just as i Say i haven't seen it in ages. It's so nice and bright. the advantages of having an east facing room i tell you and it's .....Oh come on!! It's gone again??
Such is life in the land of the queen. I heard somewhere recently that Britain used to be called the "Kingdom on which the sun never set", but it's actually the "Kingdom where the sun never rises". True True....
Anyways.....
So the first para has nothing to do with the title of the blog...After writing the title the first phrase (Ou est le soleil...for those with short term memory loss) came to mind. It was made famous by Lance Armstrong on the Tour de france on a particularly rainy day. So i though...hey!! why not crap about it hanh?? And there were words...(Not particularly making sense, but words nevertheless...)
So whats the post about anyway? Nothing in particular i must admit....just a random title for a random post on a blog full of random thoughts....got a nice ring to it, don't it?
incidentally it also a song by Megadeth. Which brings me to comment on the fact that I am out of songs. Really! I am tired of my current collection. Well not tired. I still enjoy them a lot, but I need some new stuff. I have been adding songs little by little, title by title, over the years, but it's time for "a step change" (in management lingo. See ma i am studying!!). I need to add like a new artist, or album, or genre. I have a whole lot of genres already, but am still far from having a lot of really good music out there.
The best part of the sources of my music has been that they have rarely been conventional. A lot of my better songs have been collected after hearing them on the OST of a movie or series or some such! I tell you...the amount of time i have spent after watching a movie trying to figure out what a particular song is and dloading it! I have actually sat thru credits at cinemas to read the song title or artist. Sometimes, I have tried to memorise the lyrics to come back and then google it! Scavenger hunt at a whole new level i tell you!
Anyway, of late though I am watching more series online (All hail high speed broadband!!) I still don't have ideas for any new music.
the other thing on my mind has been dum dum dum...dumda dum dumda dum!! Darth Vader!! But that deserves a whole new post....so I shall write sometime soon!
Till then....ok tata bbye!
Such is life in the land of the queen. I heard somewhere recently that Britain used to be called the "Kingdom on which the sun never set", but it's actually the "Kingdom where the sun never rises". True True....
Anyways.....
So the first para has nothing to do with the title of the blog...After writing the title the first phrase (Ou est le soleil...for those with short term memory loss) came to mind. It was made famous by Lance Armstrong on the Tour de france on a particularly rainy day. So i though...hey!! why not crap about it hanh?? And there were words...(Not particularly making sense, but words nevertheless...)
So whats the post about anyway? Nothing in particular i must admit....just a random title for a random post on a blog full of random thoughts....got a nice ring to it, don't it?
incidentally it also a song by Megadeth. Which brings me to comment on the fact that I am out of songs. Really! I am tired of my current collection. Well not tired. I still enjoy them a lot, but I need some new stuff. I have been adding songs little by little, title by title, over the years, but it's time for "a step change" (in management lingo. See ma i am studying!!). I need to add like a new artist, or album, or genre. I have a whole lot of genres already, but am still far from having a lot of really good music out there.
The best part of the sources of my music has been that they have rarely been conventional. A lot of my better songs have been collected after hearing them on the OST of a movie or series or some such! I tell you...the amount of time i have spent after watching a movie trying to figure out what a particular song is and dloading it! I have actually sat thru credits at cinemas to read the song title or artist. Sometimes, I have tried to memorise the lyrics to come back and then google it! Scavenger hunt at a whole new level i tell you!
Anyway, of late though I am watching more series online (All hail high speed broadband!!) I still don't have ideas for any new music.
the other thing on my mind has been dum dum dum...dumda dum dumda dum!! Darth Vader!! But that deserves a whole new post....so I shall write sometime soon!
Till then....ok tata bbye!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Wherever I may roam...
....I still land back where i started....may be it has something to do with the fact that the world is round and all that...(Damn you Copernicus and Galileo!!)
Any..who....
so then I made an early morning visit to a racecourse!! Fancy right! i mean only the rich and loaded guys with nothing better to do go to racecourses right? (And to play golf..i never got the point of the game..its slow, boring and well...it's not really a game is it??) but guess what, yours truly, did just that! Before you get any ideas (of asking me for a loan...) it was to look for a job....albeit part-time. The travails of a student these days i tell you. Part time work is the only thing that can help me survive, and sometimes you have to travel at 9:30 in the morning for that! (I'll cover the pains of having to work while studying in a later post...for now...lets stay on topic...)
So then, i leave to get to this place that's just 15 mins away by train...piece of cake right? Wrong! the damn trains are shut for the day. I mean seriously, i don't make this shit up. Things actually seem to be going wrong like its a documentary on Murphy's life. (Sometimes i feel i am in this reality show with Murphy looking over and putting me through various situations to prove his theory...freaky!) So what choice do I have, but to catch the bus. Credit to the service here that they have a "Rail Replacement" service! So it's not half as bad...right? Wrong again! the bus doesn't go all the way. He drops us off near a railway station and you have to catch the train for the last 2 stops. (And as if to make some sort of morbid point, he drops me off near a jail....hmmm) So then i take a train and voila!! i'm there! (Hugs, claps and high fives all around!!)
The racecourse itself isn't too great...it's ok. the lack of horses was a major factor in giving that impression i think...
So then i'll be working at this place, so lets see how that pans out in the long term...
And talking bout travelling....i've been trying (trying being the key word here...you'll see why soon nuf) to do a europe trip. I'd be quiet the loser if i didn't inspite of being in Europe..(not that i am not one already...but hey....a guy can hope right!) But it's just so damn difficult....expensive more precisely! Actually the whole Schengen thing is the pain....i don't so much mind the costs. Apping for a Schengen is like getting a damn job! the only thing they don have is a job interview.
So why do you want to go to (insert country here)? Why should we let you go? What do you bring to the country? How long were you in the last country? What was your reason for leaving? Why did the chicken cross the schengen border? Why did the pope cross the road? What's that? because he crosses everything...hahah true true!!
Anyway...seriously....it's so much easier if ur born in like france or italy or spain or so on and so forth! You can literally decide on friday to go to another country! While i have to plan a bloody month in advance! I mean most days i don't know what i'm doing later the same day and you're asking me to plan a month in advance? If I could do that I wouldn't be here doing what I'm doing now, would i? (I know u need a little background to understand that....but i'm in no mood...so those who do..good for you...those who don't...well not like u care anyway..)
So that remains a pipe dream now....though to my credit i seem to have made a sort of plan that just needs a minor fleshing out! (Woo hoo!! More back slapping and high fives!! this is turning into a rather happy post n'est ce pas?)
right....so then let's see how all that pans out....till then...we will wait..we will see...we will hope. Why? Because without hope we don't have anything. (Or some such....don quite remember the dialogue...it's from the Matrix!)
Any..who....
so then I made an early morning visit to a racecourse!! Fancy right! i mean only the rich and loaded guys with nothing better to do go to racecourses right? (And to play golf..i never got the point of the game..its slow, boring and well...it's not really a game is it??) but guess what, yours truly, did just that! Before you get any ideas (of asking me for a loan...) it was to look for a job....albeit part-time. The travails of a student these days i tell you. Part time work is the only thing that can help me survive, and sometimes you have to travel at 9:30 in the morning for that! (I'll cover the pains of having to work while studying in a later post...for now...lets stay on topic...)
So then, i leave to get to this place that's just 15 mins away by train...piece of cake right? Wrong! the damn trains are shut for the day. I mean seriously, i don't make this shit up. Things actually seem to be going wrong like its a documentary on Murphy's life. (Sometimes i feel i am in this reality show with Murphy looking over and putting me through various situations to prove his theory...freaky!) So what choice do I have, but to catch the bus. Credit to the service here that they have a "Rail Replacement" service! So it's not half as bad...right? Wrong again! the bus doesn't go all the way. He drops us off near a railway station and you have to catch the train for the last 2 stops. (And as if to make some sort of morbid point, he drops me off near a jail....hmmm) So then i take a train and voila!! i'm there! (Hugs, claps and high fives all around!!)
The racecourse itself isn't too great...it's ok. the lack of horses was a major factor in giving that impression i think...
So then i'll be working at this place, so lets see how that pans out in the long term...
And talking bout travelling....i've been trying (trying being the key word here...you'll see why soon nuf) to do a europe trip. I'd be quiet the loser if i didn't inspite of being in Europe..(not that i am not one already...but hey....a guy can hope right!) But it's just so damn difficult....expensive more precisely! Actually the whole Schengen thing is the pain....i don't so much mind the costs. Apping for a Schengen is like getting a damn job! the only thing they don have is a job interview.
So why do you want to go to (insert country here)? Why should we let you go? What do you bring to the country? How long were you in the last country? What was your reason for leaving? Why did the chicken cross the schengen border? Why did the pope cross the road? What's that? because he crosses everything...hahah true true!!
Anyway...seriously....it's so much easier if ur born in like france or italy or spain or so on and so forth! You can literally decide on friday to go to another country! While i have to plan a bloody month in advance! I mean most days i don't know what i'm doing later the same day and you're asking me to plan a month in advance? If I could do that I wouldn't be here doing what I'm doing now, would i? (I know u need a little background to understand that....but i'm in no mood...so those who do..good for you...those who don't...well not like u care anyway..)
So that remains a pipe dream now....though to my credit i seem to have made a sort of plan that just needs a minor fleshing out! (Woo hoo!! More back slapping and high fives!! this is turning into a rather happy post n'est ce pas?)
right....so then let's see how all that pans out....till then...we will wait..we will see...we will hope. Why? Because without hope we don't have anything. (Or some such....don quite remember the dialogue...it's from the Matrix!)
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Of things that work.....and things that don't...
decisions....decisions...decisions.......
you know that feeling.....when you have to make a tough decision, a difficult one, an important one....and you just know what to do. You know what's right...you know where you want to go with this....you know things will just work out......
more often than not....that feeling is wrong. You WILL make the wrong decision. You WILL screw up.....and life will go to hell...
Anywho...on that positive note....lets start a brand new post!!
It's been a while....life's been a bitch (as usual)....and lotsa things have happened. (Some better than others)
A new country, a new city, a new school and a new phase in life....
some of it is working....i mean a new country and city part. Its nice...different, challenging, exciting and all that goes with having a brand new experience. You njoy it. You relish it. you have craved it for so long, that you don't know what to do now that you have it.....(It's almost like when the dog chases the car, but what is it going to do when it catches it?? I mean really?? I think i read that example somewhere by the way...not mine originally. Or was it a movie....damn i'm getting old!)
I like the exploring part. yr 2011 is the "Year of travel". I have vowed...no decided...no convinced myself...to travel! I mean where ever...london, birmingham, leeds, switzerland....goa for crying out loud!! but travel i will....(If only i could find a sugar mama to fund all this by the way!) But it is something i will do. I always wanted to do that. See the world, see new places, new cultures, meet new people...well not really new ppl, cos ppl are overrated..(more on that later)...but yeah travel in general!
The studies aren't half bad either. Not exactly what i expected, but hey....screw that...i'll make what i can of it...rest can wait....
I love the high speed broadband!! fast downloads...and i can actually watch streaming content without having to wait for stuff to buffer!! woo hoo!! but i still prefer dloading for hd content. I love the fact that i can watch football matches at reasonable times. No more staying up at 3 in the morning for champs league!!
then there's the things that don't....the course, the people, the god damn weather!! Without going into too many details...on the course....i got much more than i bargained for...in a bad way! (I could write a whole blog on why....so we shall leave that for now...) People...man i miss the grp back home! ppl are honestly waaaaay overrated and invariable full of themselves and not even worth their weight in cheap stone!!! and u never know what side of them u'll see...a bit like the weather here..u never know when the sun will suddenly disappear and u'll get swept off by 80kmph winds!! (And not swept off ur feet in a nice way either!!) i guess the weather is what gets ppl also going ditsy!
but hey! it all is part of how it works out eventually....so i guess thats how the cookie crumbles, thats how the cards fall and other smart metaphors and so on and so forth because afterall...shit happens and life goes on!
you know that feeling.....when you have to make a tough decision, a difficult one, an important one....and you just know what to do. You know what's right...you know where you want to go with this....you know things will just work out......
more often than not....that feeling is wrong. You WILL make the wrong decision. You WILL screw up.....and life will go to hell...
Anywho...on that positive note....lets start a brand new post!!
It's been a while....life's been a bitch (as usual)....and lotsa things have happened. (Some better than others)
A new country, a new city, a new school and a new phase in life....
some of it is working....i mean a new country and city part. Its nice...different, challenging, exciting and all that goes with having a brand new experience. You njoy it. You relish it. you have craved it for so long, that you don't know what to do now that you have it.....(It's almost like when the dog chases the car, but what is it going to do when it catches it?? I mean really?? I think i read that example somewhere by the way...not mine originally. Or was it a movie....damn i'm getting old!)
I like the exploring part. yr 2011 is the "Year of travel". I have vowed...no decided...no convinced myself...to travel! I mean where ever...london, birmingham, leeds, switzerland....goa for crying out loud!! but travel i will....(If only i could find a sugar mama to fund all this by the way!) But it is something i will do. I always wanted to do that. See the world, see new places, new cultures, meet new people...well not really new ppl, cos ppl are overrated..(more on that later)...but yeah travel in general!
The studies aren't half bad either. Not exactly what i expected, but hey....screw that...i'll make what i can of it...rest can wait....
I love the high speed broadband!! fast downloads...and i can actually watch streaming content without having to wait for stuff to buffer!! woo hoo!! but i still prefer dloading for hd content. I love the fact that i can watch football matches at reasonable times. No more staying up at 3 in the morning for champs league!!
then there's the things that don't....the course, the people, the god damn weather!! Without going into too many details...on the course....i got much more than i bargained for...in a bad way! (I could write a whole blog on why....so we shall leave that for now...) People...man i miss the grp back home! ppl are honestly waaaaay overrated and invariable full of themselves and not even worth their weight in cheap stone!!! and u never know what side of them u'll see...a bit like the weather here..u never know when the sun will suddenly disappear and u'll get swept off by 80kmph winds!! (And not swept off ur feet in a nice way either!!) i guess the weather is what gets ppl also going ditsy!
but hey! it all is part of how it works out eventually....so i guess thats how the cookie crumbles, thats how the cards fall and other smart metaphors and so on and so forth because afterall...shit happens and life goes on!
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